i don have anything interesting to blog abt..
so i shall blog more abt myself..
hmm..
i'm a gal who gets easily jealous?
yea..
i used to get jealous when i saw deardear talking and laughing with other gals in sec sch..
he was my 'sms stead' then..
we were with each other cos we are both despo..
i was a real nerdo then..
i still am, (in some ways?) haha..

then his gal-frens will tell him they caught me glaring at them,
and he goes:'huh?!'

Those were the good old days..

we just occasionally sms each other, and nv talk to each other in class..
we were even afraid to let our classmates noe we were together then,
fearing that they'll think us as despo..

i was considerably the most nerdy gal in class with buck teeth,
golden framed specs, thick fringe, and a skinny figure..
i was happy to accept any guy as a bf,
so long as anyone asks..
and i think dear saw me as an easy 'target' for a gf..
which was why he asked me for stead..

which was why we fear ppl will see us as despo.

haha..but its all different this time..

deardear ask me out after my 'A's..
we agreed to meet cos we tot we had not met for a long time..
den instead of silence when we saw each other,
we found ourselves able to talk to each other freely..
for the entire day, instead of shopping!

we talked abt studies, future, and exes..
and i was pretty down tat time in my love life..
so i told dear abt my sad love life..
and abt how much i did for the guy as dear mention his ex..

he said he's touch by the things i could do for someone i really love, that he is looking for a gal like this..

and ltr..
dear ask me for stead..
even though he knows i might not accept it cos he can feel tat i still have feelings for another..
initially i wanted to wait to see if i still have fate with the guy..
but decided tat if i left my ans to be pending to dear,
it'll be torturous for him..
cos i've undergone how torturous it is to wait for an ans from someone u love..

so i decided to give it a try..

i've not regretted my choice, no matter wad..
even though we did have our huge arguments..

1 yr 1 mth plus le..
pretty long journey..

sarang heyo dear!

p.s. hope dear don mind me disclosing our story.. :P