Time heals all wounds.

that's something i have to learn to believe in.

for me,
my heart controls my mind.
even though a reason is perfectly logical,
i wont follow my mind.

my mind keeps thinking:' come on, its over, forget everything abt it, lead a happy life!'
but my heart says:' u noe that's impossible, its all a mistake, i must find it back to continue my life.'

but have i found it back?
no..
tat's because this kind of thing isn't a one sided thing.

so always my mind and my heart are contracdicting one another,
making me a bit crazy sometimes,
to the point of breaking down.

im not a strong person.
emotionally i mean.

sometimes i wished i live in the world of harry potter,
whereby i could simply use magic to erase all the pain and hurt.

how desperately i wished for sch to start tmr,
so that i can divert all my attention to just violin and sch work.

wad am i supposed to do now, with all this time?
i don even have the energy to practice violin.

i just feel like rotting.