I've posted the 3 orchestra pieces on the blog, and set it as the 1st piece of music that everyone will hear when they come here..

haha..
so no more pop songs for now..

in this way i'll get to listen to it more often then..
and so will all my other frens..

feel free to check it out at the ipod there :D

Felt so much happier today, after going out with my frens..

you always made me felt so much better, and more motivated to do well..
tks.. :D


somehow or rather, i think maybe we should not be together dear,
after careful thought..

i know that's how u feel too..

sorry to type it in here,
but eventually if we're not together, it'll still be known to ppl, isn't it?

i'll really hope that u can be my very close fren, just like shichao..
its just like wad i wrote to u in the letter then..
i believed that now that i'm in NAFA,
i'm more independent already, to be able to stand on my own.


i really do not wish to hide my feelings for u..
(o wait a minute, u noe abt it long ago right?)

if i can control it,
i don wish to be involved in a relationship now..
there's like..
more than enough things for me to worry abt..

Basically, im like totally sick of everything.

sick of NIE, of NAFA, of everything and including myself.

i dono wad i wan, even after wasting a whole year.

im sick of feeling that everyone is better than me and i just simply look like a fool.

felt like quitting sometimes,
but i definitely wont improve if i do.

WA!!!
its like finally...

Dr Kan's hw is hell larx!!
can't be done..
she said it'll only takes an hour..
No lor..
it takes 3-4 hours!!

find info on baroque violin online,
then need citations.
need sites that has the creator's name, date, month, year...etc etc..
not easy luh!!


okok..
i bought a hp mini today!!
bought it after sch with mom and dad at northpoint..
that explains why i never go commutor concert( sort of compulsory in NAFA ) today..

its pink in colour!!
Yay!!
its a new arrival colour..
so cool..

bought a new thumbdrive for saving the sibelius as well..and a pink mouse..:)

so now blogging with my pink hp mini :D

i'll need to pass up my concert review this fri as hw..
but i never went for the commuter concert today..
so how?

haix...

alrights ppl..
off i go to bed..
byebye!!

decided to update my blog le..
haha..basically i went to violin 2 in the orchestra..
nafa life is hectic..a lot of breaks in between the periods,but instead of resting,me and my friends would be practising in music studios..
too many things to practise..like the orchestra pieces,and the pieces my violin teacher gave me..

did i mentioned that my new violin teacher in nafa is very handsome looking?
haha..
a caucasian..
with greyish-green eyes..that's his most attractive feature i guess..
my friend was like so attracted by him,keep saying he very cute..
he's a very good teacher too..

nafa life is pretty ok,
just tiring,since i need to bring the violin to school everyday..
booked a large locker in campus 1, instead of campus 3 where i studied,since it's all fully‭ booked..
booked it to put‭ my violin permanently in school..so i would not need to bring it again..

of cos,i didn't put my $4000plus violin there,how would i bear to,and oso i'll need to practice at home using it..

i've bought another one from mr lim,$2000plus..
so i'll put it there..

haha..
that's all folks!:D

school's starting tmr..i'm so excited!
there's violin audition tmr as well..
hope the ang moh won't scold me..

felt so bad just now..
deardear msg me just now at night, telling me he's slping soon and ask me wad am i doing..
yet i was too engross in deciding wad to wear tmr so that i won't look auntie like wad dear always say abt my dressing sense that i lost track of the time..
by the time i saw his msg, it was already 10.30pm..
so sorry dear..

anw cousin helped me get the harry potter's last book at popular for only $10!
tks cousin..
i had the book last time but i dono how i managed to lost such a thick book..haha..

more updates tmr!
all the best for my audition!:)

watch harry potter with cousin,shi chao,qianru and alvin ang today..
i should say,i'm quite disappointed in the movie..
the settings are so different from my imaginations..

nafa is so inefficient..
haven receive time table by now..

Im back!!

sorry for the lack of posts these few days, but everything is back to normal..

starting sch on monday..
finally!!

a bit nervous..
but nevertherless felt happy, after such a long 1 year vacation..:)

i always love to fool myself that i dont care,
but i shall speak the truth now.

i care more than anything else.




yea, but wad's the point?
this is freakingly insane.....................................

its 100x worse then being rejected..


it'll take years for me to be myself again.

Time heals all wounds.

that's something i have to learn to believe in.

for me,
my heart controls my mind.
even though a reason is perfectly logical,
i wont follow my mind.

my mind keeps thinking:' come on, its over, forget everything abt it, lead a happy life!'
but my heart says:' u noe that's impossible, its all a mistake, i must find it back to continue my life.'

but have i found it back?
no..
tat's because this kind of thing isn't a one sided thing.

so always my mind and my heart are contracdicting one another,
making me a bit crazy sometimes,
to the point of breaking down.

im not a strong person.
emotionally i mean.

sometimes i wished i live in the world of harry potter,
whereby i could simply use magic to erase all the pain and hurt.

how desperately i wished for sch to start tmr,
so that i can divert all my attention to just violin and sch work.

wad am i supposed to do now, with all this time?
i don even have the energy to practice violin.

i just feel like rotting.

went mac with cousin and shi chao today..
had a good hearty laugh..imitating shi chao's sentence..
abt how he's training like the training standard in army..
and etc.

decided to meet dear once per month..
since he only had so little time and he need to divide it among‭ so many ppl..

so i guessed this week wont be meeting him le ba?
maybe just pass his birthday pressie to him?

i really mean it..
its not like i'm throwing tantrum or wad..don be mistaken dear..
since i oso going nafa no time to stick to u..

we shall discuss which day of the month to meet again ba..:D

i can hardly walk.

after ystd, jogging with shichao at nite.

the last time i jogged was like, when i was in yjc?
so its a year plus ago.

my thighs muscles felt so bruised.

my neck too, and my thumb for holding the bow too long.

had a chat with elijah.
apparently he's not having a very good time with his gf now,
they're like (wad he called "stagnant') in their relationship.

jiayou! all the best! :D

have a very strong urge to keep playing violin today..
practice for 3 hours plus‭ le..
may be practising again ltr..
:D

anw..dono why my neck there like swell alot when i just play for an hour..
so i play for more than an hour.. confirm swell like siao..
like now..
any advice?

alrights, shall update my blog.

basically, nothing much to update.

next week is dear's birthday, still wondering wad to buy for him.

dono whether im excited for sch to start, cos of didi..
make me so nervous.
its like i think i'll be the lousiest violinist there.

decided to play bach and butterfly lover's concerto instead.
cos papa say he oso cannot stand the 'er quan yin yue'.
didi oso advised me not to play that.

luckily sooty and i had play it before and he helped to cut short the piece to 10min.
so i can play the 'edited' piece.

that's all folks!

going out with cousin and shichao tmr..

dear booking out tmr at 7pm plus..
initially decided to meet him, but then maybe not,
since he mentioned that he want to meet his wushu friends..

it has been a long time since he meet them,
so alrights, shall see him on sat ba.

in the meanwhile i can meet cousin and shichao longer.

Dear is especially wen rou to me today.
he even msg me now after we hanged the phone..

i tink he noes abt wad i blogged ystd..
someone must have saw the post and told him abt it.

tks dear for being so sweet!
but it feels abit weird for him to suddenly be so sweet to me..
:P

i have uploaded 'lalo symphony esplagnole' and the chinese piece im learning now 'er quan yin yue' in my blog..

feel free to listen to it!! :D

I LOVE MY BLOG NOW!!

haha..after realising that my blog music was gone(cos i think the website 'iwebmusic' is gone), my sis suggested me to use a new website, mixpod..

now if ur scroll to the end of my blog, ur will see a cute mini ipod there,
with other tracks that ur can choose..

happy now le ba..
no need to mute the 'better in time' le..
ur can stop the music with a click there..
haha..

enjoy n experiment with the other songs!!
all very nice de..